Right now, I am feeling less than inspired.
I am trying some new things and they are not working.
I am trying to do what I want to do and it is not working, I am not talking to anyone about it.
I don’t need to. I need to figure it out on my own.
The problem is I tie my struggles to my self worth.
I think about what is wrong with me. Why can’t I get it like I want to get it.
I am smart, it should be easy but it isn’t.
I was in a room with multiple people who know me well enough, I spoke to my person face to face, I was in another room filled with people who know me well.
Not a single one of them could see it; not even the person that I love more than anything, nobody saw it. They never paused to look into eyes that are tired from trying too hard and too long.
I guess I am better at hiding it than I thought I was.