And Nobody Saw It…

Right now, I am feeling less than inspired.

I am trying some new things and they are not working.

I am trying to do what I want to do and it is not working, I am not talking to anyone about it.

I don’t need to. I need to figure it out on my own.

The problem is I tie my struggles to my self worth.

I think about what is wrong with me. Why can’t I get it like I want to get it.

I am smart, it should be easy but it isn’t.

I was in a room with multiple people who know me well enough, I spoke to my person face to face, I was in another room filled with people who know me well.

Not a single one of them could see it; not even the person that I love more than anything, nobody saw it.  They never paused to look into eyes that are tired from trying too hard and too long.

I guess I am better at hiding it than I thought I was.

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